He Was A Disappointment To Me

'Bare hearted' Tam D here,


A decade on and my deceased mother's disapproval,

Still hangs heavy on me.

I loved her so much.

Yet some things from my foolish youth riled her deeply. And I don't think she ever really forgave me for my missteps.

  • 17 years old
  • 37 years old
  • 47 years old

All through the years...

I tried everything to please her. To make her love me again and be happy with me... just like when I was a bairn way back then.

Alas I failed.

Oft when looking out the windae her eyes seemed to say...

'He's a disappointment to me'

I'll be honest,

I've never got over it.

'Sorry Mum, I wasnae...'

  • A Doctor
  • An Accountant
  • A Jet Pilot


One thing comforts me.

Makes me think...

'Tam, you're a diamond, even if a little rough for some.

Makes me think I'm actually worth something.

It's when,

A person like... you,

Reads these weak scribbles.

And reflects too.

That we can all do well...

If we're allowed to.

Tam D Matheson

And the 'Can Do' Support Team

at Visit Dunfermline TV

PS How about you?

Are you always trying to live up to the expectations of others?

Don't worry, diamonds are surrounded by blackness.

In the heart of the mountain.

It's our job to dig them out.

So do YOU anyway.

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